Learning to walk again is harder than it seemed all those many years ago… for some reason, the fall was shorter, too. Maybe because my height was not where it is now. Maybe because I was so used to crawling and sitting, that falling on my own padding didn’t seem so dramatic. For whatever reason, I’ve come to realize that with time going by, I am more and more set in my ways, and any major change will leave a deep scar that will alter my outlook on life and the people I meet. It made me appreciate so much more the ones that have been and stayed in my life, despite my challenging personality. To those, I thank rom the deepest corner of my heart. They were the ones to give me their hand and pull me off the ground each time I fell.
In light of learning to walk again, with what seems to be completely strange feet, and seeing how hard it is each time to get up and start over, I’ve come to the conclusion that there are at least a dozen things that I will never do in life. And that is perfectly fine. Here are just five of them. The rest are better kept unsaid…
I’ll never grow sea legs. I wouldn’t know what to do with them. They wouldn’t fit in my shoes any way…I wonder if you wear shoes with those…
I’ll never be a circus acrobat. I’m afraid of heights. And three animals around me are just plenty. I can’t stand the smell of a menagerie anyway.
I’ll never fly to the moon. Again, I’m afraid of heights. But I’m also a bit unsure you ever get there…there have been too many conflicting stories…and I’m just not all that drawn to the cosmos…those meteors can come out of anywhere, anytime. Not much peace of mind and enjoyment on that voyage.
I’ll never eat oysters. Some things are not meant to be eaten. By me. They’re better left alone. I will enjoy picking their shells on beach…they are beautiful.
I’ll never doubt myself. Those thoughts and hunches are there for a reason. And that reason has always been self preservation. No risk, no gain, says an old Asian proverb. I’ll stick with no gaining any more strange experiences. While going through life has to mean acquiring knowledge, it also means getting to the end of it in one piece. At least for the sake of those we gather in our lives along the way.